2020 an unforgetable year, we all want to forget

"If you get tired, learn to rest and not to quit"

-Banksy

If you have been following me since I started my blog you may have noticed that I was absent for a while. You may have wondered what was going on, and I will be honest with you and admit that I needed a break. Not necessarily from the blog, it was one of the highlights of 2020, but from everything else that happened during this past year.

2020 was a rollercoaster for most of us. The pandemic, the protests, the election, and the civil unrest all had an impact on our lives and health, and none of us could have predicted it.

However, when it all started, I thought I was dealing with it quite well.

At the end of March, my job changed, and by the start of April, I was working from home. That was an adjustment, but I thought, it’s okay I can adapt. Like most of us during the first lockdown, I created a space at home and a new routine, and it was going smoothly.

I had to deal with the lockdown, the lack of toilet paper, the empty shelves at grocery stores, and the fear that a loved one or I may get sick, but I thought, it's okay I can adapt.

I saw the protests for Black Lives Matter and the hateful comments on social media. I was surprised at some of the people making those comments. People I thought I knew well but discovered I did not. Still, I tried to be okay and optimistic.

I even felt motivated to do new things. I could list all the things I tried such as Dalgona coffee and baking bread but the highlight of 2020 was launching my blog, which I had been planning for so long. However, something changed in the last few months of the year.

I lost my groove. I was tired.

And that is when this quote struck a chord with me. I had heard this quote before, but it never hit home quite like it did this past year. I was tired, and I needed a break. I needed to give myself a little time to recharge my batteries, and hopefully, that would get me back on track to do what I enjoy and what I ultimately want.

Now, I know that overall, I have not had it as hard as others. People are losing their lives, loved ones, jobs, and more. But I feel that some of us don’t even realize how it is taking a toll on all of us. I see people complain that they are tired, but cannot pinpoint why. Others are stressed and are dealing with it by eating more, drinking more, or crying more.

We all had plans that were changed, goals that the reality of Covid19 did not let us fulfill. We are dealing with something that we never experienced before, and we will adapt. I wanted to share my experience because it is okay to be tired as well. It is okay to feel a little overwhelmed by it all. Give yourself permission to feel this way and acknowledge it.

However, do not allow this feeling of tiredness to stop you. Take your break, recharge your batteries, and then get back into it. Get back on track, and do you.

This past year was filled with the good, the bad, and the ugly. However, I must say it relied heavily on the bad and the ugly. From disease to civil unrest to craziness all around, the year 2020 more than ever really tried and tested us, and we are exhausted.

I am glad that 2021 is here. I know that things will not magically become perfect, but I believe it is important to have hope that things will get better. We need to dream of better days and set goals for the future. Not just because a New Year started but because a new month, new week, and a new day started. With every new beginning, we have the opportunity to change things and create something. So let us welcome 2021, I am ready for what it may bring and I hope that you are as well.